On Saturday GURUJI started to Mahan Gurulinga Swamigal temple and as I did not have vehicle to travel to temple, GURUJI allowed me to travel with him in Car to the temple. As we were nearing Chinna malai, GURUJI was concerned that it was long back he visited Mylapore Karpagambal.
Immediately GURUJI requested Babu Anna to drive to temple and Babu Anna too took us to temple. As we were travelling to temple we were discussing about cars and bikes that are going to hit Indian market.
But the car we were travelling, carried immense depth of calmness and vibration. Though we were discussing, I felt words were coming out of ripple-less ocean.
When I talk about ripple-less ocean, I would like to share with you how GURUJI blessed me to be ripple-less.
During last Friday, my company was on leave and I went to Mahan Gurulinga Swamigal to worship Mahan and meditate in his presence. When I started meditation, a thought struck about Chappa-mooki who came in my dream.She is a woman with no nose, red eyes watching me but harmless. I shared this dream with GURUJI and GURUJI told that she might be Chappa-mooki and she might be some one having same characteristics of Durmukhi. So I prayed to Chappa-mooki and I experienced that my body became immediately free of some notches that I suffer if I travel in bike or long distance.
My body became very light and I did not feel any strain of sitting long time in meditation. I sat in same posture for more than 60 minutes.
After reaching home and completing some of my office work which I planned to do during Saturday and Sunday, I thought of taking a small nap. As soon as I lied down, I thought why not we meditate on Chappa-mooki as we experienced good in Mahan’s temple. I started meditating in shavasana, suddenly my body became heavy, the space around me became heavy, my head started to pain, I felt chocking, my breathing became fast.
I felt uneasiness in my body and I couldnt sleep. As time passed, I decided to finish my lunch, start to AAC and share with GURUJI my current state. As I started having lunch, my body became even more heavier, head became very heavy with head ache and I was not able to enjoy the taste of the food.
After finishing my lunch I called GURUJI and shared what happened and my current state. GURUJI laughed out and told that “Saravanan you are very fearful person. You have travelled with me for 6 long years and you still fear for such small things”. After hearing GURUJI’s words I saw an easiness flowing into me. But still I thought of seeing GURUJI.
I went to GURUJI’s house and sat for meditation for just 5 minutes. Rajendran, one of GURUJI’s core disciple serving GURUJI as employee of AAC, came up and informed that GURUJI asked whether I am free to join GURUJI for a movie.
I was very happy within because every disciple will crave to travel with GURUJI no matter to which place GURUJI goes to.
I went to meet GURUJI in down stairs and GURUJI looked at me and told – “let us go to horror movie. It will correctly match your situation”. Every one laughed out including me. Yes in whatever situation you are in, once you are into GURUJI’s dhaam the energetic and highly spiritual space will change you into very positive state.
We all went to theatre and as there was delay in show timing, GURUJI decided to visit Mahan Dhadikaar swamigal in Alandhur. GURUJI was sitting inside the pragaram and I was sitting outside. I felt a pleasant blow of air coming from inside temple and brushing me elegantly. That air made my heart chakra to became absolutely free of heaviness and it made me to feel lighter.
It was a very short session and the session lasted for 10-15 minutes. We all started back to theatre. First time in my life I watched a scary, horror movie with no disturbance or shake within. I was absolutely witnessing the movie with no shake within. There was no expectation within what will happen next, there was no fear of what will come in darkness, there was no shock. As I was watching movie or witnessing movie I could feel settling inside, I felt a ripple-less state within.
After coming out movie and while talking with Sudharsun, Sudharsun told that GURUJI shared that he was very rooted within while watching the movie. There I understood that I was blessed by GURUJI to be rooted within while watching movie. From that day I still enjoy the ripple-less state within. THANK YOU GURUJI
Coming back to what I experienced in Karpagambal shrine, GURUJI settled down and instructed me to sit beside and close eyes. As I closed my eyes, both outside and inside it was quite noisy. Outside people were chatting, inside my mind was chatting.
But behind the chatting sound, I was able to experience a ripple-less state. GURUJI always says that once you start watch and listen to your mind without judging any thought, the mind will become silent. I started to do so and like a single strong sweep, my mind became silent and there I experienced what witnessing is. I was just I, just I and just I. I was only I, only I and only I. I am unable to further describe the state as I find no words to explain or describe it.
Thank you GURUJI for showing me what really I am.